Sunday, January 15, 2017

Why self-discovery is in vain

28 years I spent on self-discovery. 

15 Jobs I quitted in order to realize it is not me. 

4 continents I travelled through to discover myself in any culture one can imagine, but discovering nothing but my old patterns. 

Until I came to that very discussion today, where my friend told me as a negligible fact: "I do not believe in self-discovery". You cannot go to Timbuktu and be all peaceful, and thats the real you, coming back in the office and then you are angry again. Which one is you then? You are then peaceful one in Timbuktu and you are the angry one in the office."

I asked myself: Now why is it that I went for Timbuktu in the first place? And I went to so many Timbuktus all around the world, only to discover, that it wasn't me. None of them.

And she said: "The only thing you CAN do, is self-creation. You can choose who you want to be and create that person! That's it!" 

Here we go, after all these years of world traveling, being anywhere in the middle of nowhere, I came back and it is an old friend giving me the answer to all my seeking: self-creation. 

I have been asking myself the wrong questions all the way long!
It is not, who am I? But, who do I want to be? And maybe not even, who do I want to be. But, how do I want to feel? What is the purpose of life?

And that one is easy, right? I want to feel happy. Not just once a week or every two days. But 24 hours, 7 days a week. And when will I be in that state? If I made happiness a habit, but a choice or a path or aim in life. Then I'll be happy all day long. If my minds habit would be happiness. That is the formula. 




Sunday, October 23, 2016

a shaman's conversation

I love that.
_I love that, too.
You don't exist.
_yeah, I do.
Well then, prove it.
_Isn't that what you are reading proof enough?
No it ain't-
_Well, tell me what to do!
Laugh out loud
_I can't!
Why?
_You know why!
So tell me again.
_I only exist in your head.
Well, so you are saying, I am schizophrenic. So all the doctors were correct with their diagnosis.
_Well, they are shamans, too.

Before you win you have to loose

One always starts out with the question, what can I win? What is my target, what are my aims?
What do I WANT? Where do I want to go and Who do I want to be?

Now fine, yes, you need to know the answers to all these questions. However, before you find out the path and all its clues, you'll need to check out what you gonna loose. And if you do not check it out, it will sooner or later hit you anyway.

So what are you willing to pay? What are you willing to let go? What will you have to leave behind? Which pains can you endure? Is it all worth it are you asking? And your motivation is already gone?

Then better don't start the journey! I tell you why, you must love the process as much as you love your aims. As a matter of fact, you'll need to love the process even more than your aims. Otherwise you'll never get to your destination.

For instance, take traveling. Aren't you always on some sort of journey, going somewhere? You need to know, that you can take the ride, otherwise, even if you arrived at the beach. What use will all the sun and sand have if you are sick to death?

So go back and resit your thoughts. Are you ready to give up your Self? Yes, change that self, that likes to lean back and watch youtube? Are you ready to take off? Make sure you're ready for the ride.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

The Story of the Tar Pit - Kyron at the UN

Kyron was actually channeled at the UN - crazy shit. Now I loved this parable of his, 1995:

"Dear ones, there is a small parable that has already been published and known to those who read the messages of Spirit within the Kryon Writings. It has never been given publicly, however, and we had asked that it remain private until now. For we knew of the potential of this meeting years ago, and now it is time to speak it. The parable is short, but it is filled with power. It is the "Story of the Tar Pit."
It seems that all humanity was hindered by tar to the degree that it was difficult to walk from one place to another. The tar would stick to the humans wherever they walked. But this was the way of the world, for all humans shared this attribute. Everywhere they walked, the tar would stick. It would cling to their clothing and make them dirty, and many times (depending upon how thick it was) it would actually stop them. Other times it would only slow them down, but this was the way of the things for all and was accepted.
One human discovered through his enlightenment, a gift from God. He gave intent to be different in the New Age and claimed this gift. When he did so, the tar receded from him. And so everywhere he walked, the tar moved away as he walked into it! It no longer stuck to him. His clothes were always clean and everywhere he went, he did so easily - gliding from place to place. There were no more stoppages and no more difficulties.
Now, he was not evangelistic about this gift, and he kept it to himself. He told himself that even though the gift was available to everyone, it was very personal. So he decided it was not appropriate to mention it to the others. Before long, however, those around him noticed that he was not in any way hampered by the tar. So it wasn't long before they asked him, "What has happened? How did this take place? You look so free - so peaceful! Your clothes are always clean, and you're able to move so quickly past us!"
So he willingly told them about his personal gift from God, and many of them also gave intent for it as well. Each person to whatever degree that they asked, received the gift, and soon many were walking around without the tar sticking to them. And so it was that over a period of time, there was a large group of enlightened humans who had changed themselves, yet it had started with only one - concerned only to improve himself. So we say to you, the one who changed himself also made a difference for many - even though there was no conscious effort on his part to do so."


Spirit Science 3 ~ Channeling